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Patah hati.

2012-01-16T21:18:00.001Z

Assalammualaikum.

Lama tak rasa begini.
Lama tak rasa sengsara begini.
Rasa seolah-olah hati dihiris-hiris dengan pisau tajam.
Rasa seperti mahu menjerit sekuat yang boleh.
Mahu menjerit lama mungkin.
Mahu menangis habis-habisan.
Mahu meratap.
Mahu tinggalkan semuanya.
Mahu abaikan semua kerja.
Lain kali jangan mula awal.
Lain kali jangan buat beriya.
Lain kali jangan terlampau yakin.
Kan dah kecewa?
Ye, kecewa yang amat sangat.
Penat pun ada, sepuluh kali buat, sepuluh kalilah begitu saja end resultnya.
Dugaankah ini?
Kenapa sahabat lain berjaya?
Gah-gah semuanya.
Kita buat sekali kalaupun aku tak mula awal.
Ada yang mula lagi lambat dariku.
Kita semak kerja sama-sama kan?
Atau adakah aku kurang bijak berbanding kamu semua?
Usaha yang di beri tak mencukupi mungkin.
Ye, aku tak genius mahupun gifted.

Akhirnya, aku hanya mampu berpura-pura senyum dan terima apa yang mereka kata.
'Tak pe Nad, lain kali masih ada'
'Bukan rezeki kau tu Nad'
'Aku pun tak tau nak cakap apa Nad'
Ye, aku pun tatau apa nak cakap dengan pencapaian diri ini.

Mungkin betul, belum masanya nak berjaya.
Mungkin aku tak cukup usaha kot.
Jangan berdukalahh.
Kena tabah, kan?
Harapnya Allah memberi aku kekuatan untuk buat semula apa yang aku tinggalkan dan moga Dia sentiasa bagi ilham padaku untuk terus berusaha.
*cuba pujuk hati dan diri*
Mudah cakap Nad, nak buat payah.
Janganlah aku ignore kerja akademik semua ni lama sangat.
Banyak lagi kerja nak hantar walau kau tawar hati.

Over sangatkan aku?
Tapi hey, risau dengan hasil kerja sendiri.
Kalau berterusan, ijazah tahap apalah aku nak bawa balik Malaysia, kan?

Dan waktu beginilah aku rindu keluarga di Malaysia.
:-(

Redha dan Pasrah.
Banyak ke Pasrah sebenarnya.
Moga tabah hadapinya Nadiah.
'Never lose hope'
Allah sentiasa ada.

Sekian.
P/s: untung kau Cik Blog, gara-gara tensi, aku melawat kau.

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2011-12-30T18:04:00.001Z

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Luahan hatiku.
Serabut dan perlukan susun atur.

Thank you.

Of Stage Fright.

2011-11-10T10:55:00.001Z

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

Rindunya kat blog. :-)
Just finished my CLT presentation. Phewwww.
Lega yang teramat.
It went well, but we (Safwan and I) missed a very important aspect . :-\ silly us.
But luckily, there's our saviour, Encik Michael yang berdedikasi yang tolong topup our missing point.
Please, don't deduct our marks yaa?

Oh yeah, concerning the title.
Stage fright.
Me, I have stage fright.
Or that's what I always think.
Everytime, before presentations or speech or anything, I'll have this hyperbole feeling of nervous and stressed.
Afraid that I wouldn't be able to deliver my points and explain it to my friends.
Had this kind of feelings for as long as I can remember.

My sahabat baik said this: 'Dah tiga tahun kami kenal hampa Nad, cakap saja nervous la apa la, tapi nanti kat depan cakap laju macam train'
(ayat diubah ikut bahasa aku) heeee.
See, maybe it is just my halucination or imagination.
Or exaggeration?
Have to improve my self-confidence in this aspect.
Phewwww. Or else I'll have sleepless night before my presentation.
Please, bear that in mind, yeah? :-)
But, seeing this positively, being nervous and all might trigger us to prepare thoroughly before the presentation.
We'll tend to study the subject, make short notes etc.
Well, everything has its positive and negative side.
It is up to us how to face this matter.

Thank you sahabat-sahabat sebab sudi dengar rungutan nervous saya di kala presentation menjelang.
Sayang lebih laa! :-D

P/s: my feelings after presentation - refer to the pic below.
Satisfied, relieved.
Just like fireworks.

Silly me.

2011-11-04T02:27:00.001Z

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

It's 02:25 am and I'm still wide awake.
Oh yeah, I planned to update this blog about my Liverpool trip but hey, I just planned, didn't know my FB and Twitter time just flew away.
And here I am, trying to do my obligations towards my beloved blog.
Can't write on Liverpool trip as I can't think properly right now. Haaaa!

So, what shall I write?
About Aidiladha?
Nothing much.
There'll be a small gathering among Malaysians on Sunday.
Prayers and preaches? *sesuai ke word ni?* :-)

Oh yeah, I got myself a new phone casing for my SII.
I bought it because it is very cheap.
99pence and free delivery.
Nice, aite?

I think, this will be it.
Another random and meaningless entry.
:-)
Till then.

Thanks people!

P/s: that's the casing. Colourful aite? I'll try buying an elegant one next time. :-)

Not again!

2011-10-30T23:51:00.001Z

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

Words and expressions have indeed failed me again.
Both this aspect failed me again today.
It's connected with feelings too.
Uh oh, this is just too complicated.
Initially, I considered myself innocent but seeing how things go, I, once again believe I'm guilty.
This isn't good people.
I don't understand how my brain works and how theirs work too.

Pressure increases and I feel more demotivated.
What shall I do?

Mode: Blur.

Thanks.

Of Reading Week.

2011-10-27T22:38:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

It's been a while since I last posted here.
This is due to my reading week homework. *Boo Nad! You didn't read as much as you watch the drama*
Sigh. A bit disappointed with myself since I promised myself that I'll try my best to finish all my readings (2 articles and 4 novels) before Friday. Obviously, it is just a dream. Fuhhhh. At least, I've finished my article readings, aite?
Uh oh, there are moreeeeee.
Presentation and assignments.
You're doomed Nad. DOOMEDDDDDDDDDDD!

But thanks to Allah for giving me strength to read one of my Gothic novel, Frankenstein.
I thought it'd be boring but it turned out to be just fine.
I love it.
Mary Shelley wrote well.
:-)
Done with Volume I.
And that's why I decided to stop and spend my time here.

Did I inform you that I feel more comfortable updating my blog via phone. That's why you didn't see colourful words. ;-)

What else should I type?
Oh, the weather here is not being nice to us.
Raining and cold.
Seducing us to make love with our duvet. Heeee.

All in all, I kinda enjoy my Reading Week.
It's been a good one.
Hopefully, it will be better next time.

P/s: Aldiko has many free books to be read online. Best best! I've got Frankenstein on my shelf and I reckon there will be more books on my shelf in future. InsyaAllah.

P/s: Those are my handwriting during this rainy season. Macam cacing. :-D

Cheers.

Peverell's Housewarming Session.

2011-10-22T21:25:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah.
Semua dah selesai dengan jayanya.
Officially, Peverell telah dihangatkan dengan kehadiran sahabat-sahabat dari Student Village, The Hoe, Teratak Datinz and The Mutleyiaannns. :-)
Thanks sebab sudi singgah ke teratak kami yang tak seberapa ni.
May Allah bless you always.

The event started early this week when we, the Peverellians discussed what to buy so on and so forth.
And the mission began.
Thanks to Mirah, Fariha, Rai and Ain sebab sudi pinjamkan Hoppa comel.
Very useful to bring 6 packets of rice, veggies and bawang and lain-lain lagi.
Thanks to Ada and Nik sebab datang awal dan buatkan pizza for the guests. Tak tidur malam la masing-masing dek teringatkan your super-delicious pizza.
Thank to Yah sebab tolong goreng-goreng. Terharu.
Thanks to Ummi and Aisyah for the banana cake and begedil yang extra sedapp.
Thanks to Aiman yang lead tadiii.
Hanya Allah saja yang mampu balas jasa kalian. *skema ayat*

Cooking session started Friday night lagi.
Sibuk blend cili, kupas and hiris bawang sampai menangis.
Goreng ikan bilis.
Buat kuah, adunan jemput-jemput and choc cornflakes.
And this morning, bertungkus-lumus masak nasi, rebus spaghetti, kemas laman belakang.
Credits to my beloved housemates; Hana, Jihah and Ayein. :-)

Sorry to all if aku terkasar bahasa or teroverreact.
Aku kan cepat gelabah.
Mungkin event ni mengajar aku untuk jadi lebih sabar?
Make sense ke?
Cuba cuba. :-)

Nevertheless, I'm extra happy to see familiar faces coming to our house and eating all the food. *terharu, tak sia-sia kami masak*

All of you are more than welcome to come to our house.

P/s: sorry, tuan rumah busy, tak boleh ambil gambar banyak-banyak and susunan gambar macam tak kena je. Sorry again.

P/s: thanks again from the bottom of my heart.

Words.

2011-10-18T00:20:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people.

Hari ini topic ialah words.
I wanna talk on how words can affect you, be it positive or negative ones.

I love soothing words, who doesn't?
But what if the words could kill you softly? Inside and out?
What will you do?

Phewww.
I experienced both today.
Mostly the negative ones.
Heartbreaking peeps when you just lose your motivation and will to carry on with your activities when someone ruined it, just for you.
I learned that I need to cope with it ASAP because it could cause me trouble if I keep going on.
When this happened, I can't focus and will feel scared. Adoii. Payahhh.

The positive ones?
It can make me smile all day long.
And I'll store it in my mind forever. :-)

Can you see the differences?
When we talk about negative aspect, we would have so much to tell, but the positive ones? Ermm

I think, I need to prepare mentally for those negatiVe words.
:-)

P/s: entry merapu before going to bed. Tergantung!

Thanks people.

Short one.

2011-10-16T19:51:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

I'm on my way back to Plymouth from London.
Phewwww.
I went to Liverpool this weekend.
That one, I'll blog about it later.
But right now, I'm soooo bored that I decided to write a short entry.
About what?
Erm, my best friend yang sorang ni.
I mentioned about her numerous times in this blog and I never get bored of it.
Love her soo much.
*okayy, this sounds so wrong*
Siapa siapa?
Kalau betul, I belanja tap water exclusively from Peverell.
Haaaa, tentulah si Busuk Cici.
Actually, I went to Liverpool with her and my cousin.
Fuhhhh. A very short trip and a tiring one, I must say.
But, sebab ada good company, semua turned out to be good.
Okay, back to our main subject.
Cici, there's this one time in KMM tu, lagu Sempurna tengah hot kat radio, and both of us minat nak mati lagu tu, so everytime lagu tu on air, kami akan lari2 cari radio tuk dengar. So random la this statement.

And and I try to be in contact with her all the time.
As I tweeted, name all the communication items, we have it all.
*riak kejap*

And and she is always there and here for me.
Heeee.
All of my friends are, but since I'm talking bout her, puji-pujilah sikit mak cik ni.

Ci, thank you ye for being my sahabat baik.
InsyaAllah dunia akhirat.
Love you so stronggggg. :-)

P/s: latest pictures of Cici and please ignore my face. So weird. Hhahaa.

Thanks.

Pace.

2011-10-15T08:14:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

This is my 2nd year as a TESL student.
What shall I feel about it?
Cuak ke?
Suka ke?
Actually, I'm nervous about it. I can't see myself doing all the readings and works.
I'm not as hardworking as before.
I can't even finish reading my reading. Hah!
How can I be a First Class degree student if I have this kind of attitude?
Oh myyyy.
It's scary at times when people put too much hope on you.
What if you failed?
Can you face them and say I'm sorry?
I don't think I can do it.

Uh oh, semangat rajin, sila datang sekarannggg.
Saya nak jadi Nadiah Sahum when she was a primary school student.
@_@

Suka.

2011-10-14T08:45:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

Pernah bercinta?
Pernah suka pada sesiapa?
Aku pernah.
Aku pernah suka pada somebody, lamaaaa.
Bertahun-tahun, tapi tak pernah bagitahu dia.
Aku berhenti suka dia lepas tahu dia ada mak we.
Aku rasa menyesal sebab suka dia bertahun-tahun.
Hampeh.

Then, aku tersuka pada seorang lagi.
Dan yang ni sekejap saja.
Sebabnya, erm.
Payah nak kata.
But thank you sebab buat aku jadi begini.

Kemudian, sampailah turn orang ni pula.
Payah sungguh aii bila suka pada orang yang dah bergirlfriend ni.
Aku rasa laa.

Kesimpulannya, baik cari cinta Dia dulu.
Cinta manusia tak boleh pakai.
Erk, keterlaluan tak entri ni?

P/s: percaya ke dengan apa yang aku tulis ni?

P/s juga: gambar tiada kaitan dengan entri. Or is it entri tiada kaitan dengan gambar? Uh oh. Go figure out.

Of time and Stonehenge.

2011-10-12T22:59:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!
Hana, Yah and I went to Stonehenge today.
There were lots to tell.
Di kala poket kosong, akal buat perangai.
Nearly pengsan sebab we were too careless, but Alhamdulillah, masih disayangiNya.
Selamat sampai rumah walau banyak halangan.
Basically, we went there to see big rocks in the middle of nowhere.
Some might say it is just a waste of time, but we strongly believe the satisfaction that we've obtained by just gazing at the rocks were priceless. @_@ HaHaHa. Okay, tak la melampau sangat sampai gitu, but seriously, kami memang puas hati!
Besides batu tu, ada je lagi yang best, the scenery itself-breathtaking.
Subhanallah, indah sungguh ciptaan Allah. Awatlaahhh kat Malaysia tak de meadows yang cantik gitu?
*sila bersyukur dengan apa yang ada, okay?*

Uh oh, this trip taught me to be ermm, punctual, jangan lengah-lengah, be alert with time.
Preparation awal sangat penting ye, supaya tak tergesa-gesa.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed this trip very much!
:-)

P/s: pictures ada sikit je sebab gambar ni je ada di phone. :-) yang lain, kalau rajin akan upload nanti.

Not alone.

2011-10-10T20:48:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people.
I don't feel lonely.
I don't feel useless.
Everything seems to brighten up.
I love my life now.
And I really hope it stays just the way they are now.
Uh oh, I've been missing home but I can't find the right time to call home.
It's either I'm busy or they didn't pick up the phone. I might just wait later.
Oh yes, I'll be going for two trips this week.
Hopefully it will goes well, insyaAllah.

That's all.
Till then, cheers.
:-)

P/s: I've been trying to read these books for the past few days but to no avail. May Allah guides me to be more hardworking. Teeeheeee. ;-)

Dull.

2011-10-09T23:28:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people.
I'm back.
Maybe because I feel lost.
I feel empty.
Uh oh.
I shouldn't feel this way.
Not right now.
Urghhh!!

Done.
Thank you.

This is the best.

diam sahaja.

2011-10-09T21:59:00.000+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!

Terlebih sharing sangat ke saya ni?
Di laman sosial itu?
Makanya, maaflah!
Lepas ni, takkan bising-bising lagi.

:)

Thank you.

Tidak sekuat itu.

2011-10-06T23:21:00.001+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!
Tonight I had a long conversation with my beloved housemates.
Hana, Jihah and Yein.
It all started with our house meeting. After we are done with the meeting, kami melepak sekejap.
Do girls stuff.
And then, keluar la luahan perasaan.
About what? Biarlah rahsia.
We talked about it. And after all the conversation, I realised, I might not be able to be like my friend who could handle her situation very well. If it was me, I'd cry day and night. Called my Mak or siblings. But she kept it all by herself. I was and still is very impressed with her. My friends said, Allah only test people who He is sure can handle the pain, so on and so forth. See, how Allah puts His trust on us? And they also mentioned that we'll never know how to handle certain situations until we experience it. Yeah, they were right. And I really hope, when the time comes for me to feel the 'burden' or responsibility, I could do it wholeheartedly. InsyaAllah.

And I pray that Allah make ease for everything that we will go through.
Ameen. :-)

feelings.

2011-10-05T22:59:00.000+01:00

Assalammualaikum and Hi people!
I'm back, probably.
Hopefully, it'll last longer this time. :)

I have mixed feelings lately, about almost everything.
Seems like I can't do anything properly.
Tak baca doa ke sebelum buat sesuatu?
Tidak logik itu.

And I always feel like isolating myself from others.
Because I can be harsh to people and I feel like doing so now.

Why o why? :(

Mula rindu.

2011-10-05T00:37:00.001+01:00

Uh oh, mula rindu Mak saya.
I hope she is fine.
Huu, I rarely call her as sometimes I don't have any ideas/topics for conversation.
It's bad, I know.
My longest conversation with her on phone, I think not more than one hour.
Nevertheless Mak, you do know I love you, aite?

Second chance.

2011-10-05T00:32:00.001+01:00

I thought I might give this blog a second chance.
:-)
I just can't pour my heart out here anymore.
Erm, my fault, maybe.

Bayangan.

2011-09-20T17:58:00.001+01:00

Cubaan untuk memblogkan diri ini.
:-)
Been busy.
Holidays and all.
Sebenarnya, alasan je semua tu. Heee

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updates.

2011-07-06T19:16:00.000+01:00

assalammualaikum and hi people!
yoooo!
berzaman tak update!
i'm busyyyyy! <- tipu saja!
the truth is, tiada mood nak update blog.
tiada apa nak tulis.
oh, i'm at HOME! :)
okay, itu saja.
Later!
daaaaaaaaa

meaningless.

2011-06-05T20:30:00.000+01:00

assalammualaikum and hi people!
i'm back.
*the only reason i'm writing this is because i can't crack my head in doing my assignments*
alhamdulillah, i am still breathing on His soil.
i am alive to witness and experience the sweet and bitter events occurring around me lately.
:)
i guess He chose me so that i'll become stronger?
maybe, insyaAllah!

so, what's new?
it's June peepssssss!
i'm counting days to go home.
to be with my family, to be away from all these.
*these include assignments!*

i'm currently stuck with my assignments (ELT and LL)
the due date jauhhhh lagi.
but me wanting to be the nice girl, wishes to starts my work early and not being a procrastinator, but unfortunately, my neuron system in brains x function this weekend!
teheeee.
sorry dear, can't do it now.
maybe later ELT and LL! :D

oh yeah, i got myself something.
i think the most expensive one that i've ever purchased since i'm here and surprisingly, it isn't iphone.
bye bye iphone!
hello SAMSUNG GALAXY SII !
my new love.
bought it with my sayang last two weeks. :)

yesterday, 25 of us went to Clarks Village to shop.
but silly me, i can't find anything there albeit there are more than 90 outlets there.
dushh Nad!
mana passion awak untuk bershopping?!
maybe because i spent hundreds even before going to Clarks Village.
*and this excludes my SAMSUNG*
but the experience was nice.
i could always bring my family and friends there if they ever come to visit me here.

currently, i'm addicted with my own twitter account.
sorry for those who's following me, spamming your timeline with my words and phrases.
heee.
just bear with me will you?

just as the title, this post is meaningless.
i don't feel meaningless because i believe every cloud has it's silver lining.
and i'm sure all of us could overcome our problems if we try.
percubaan tak kan menampakkan kebodohan kita. :)

ada orang kata:

pengalaman hidup adalah ujian paling susah bagi sesetengah kita

jadi, bersabarlah dalam pengalaman hidup ni

let others behave immaturely

but we have to stand up and behave maturely

thank you, will always remember that.
told ya, this entry is meaningless. :)

Thank You Allah.

2011-05-18T14:07:00.000+01:00

Alhamdulillah.
Thank you Allah for giving me the strength to finish my work.
Thank you Allah for giving me the will to type those words.
Thank you Allah for giving friends who've been helpful.
:)
Thank you.
Thank you.

Yesterday, I was blinded by my anger and frustration, but my dear friend gave me this verse from the Quran:

O you who believe! Seek help in patience and As-Salat (the prayer). Truly! Allah is with As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).

(2:153)

pilih jalan yang betul. jangan sesat! :)

and I was startled.
Pity me for being so foolish.
I should have seek His help during my bad times.
He is always available to help me.
next time, cari Dia dulu ya Nadiah?
Thank you sahabat.

I'm all smiles now!
Alhamdulillah!!!
Thank you again Allah!!

of melodramas.

2011-05-17T22:06:00.000+01:00

assalammualaikum and hi people!
i dont actually have any topics to write about.
im on my way writing an essay for my elective course.
filmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

this is currently my face @_@

why do i have to write about melodramas?
why sirk?
why haynes?
seorang gay.
seorang lagi pelik.
aiishhhhhhhhhhhh!
and for the first time, i dont have any clue.
i dont have any points to write in my essay!
mati kamu Nadiah!
tensionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn laaaaa macam niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!

bersabar bersabar Nadiah!
aduiiiiiiiiiiiii.

kenangan.

2011-05-11T18:36:00.000+01:00

assalammualaikum wbt and hi people!
dah berhabuk, dah bersawang dan hampir delete blog ini.
and how come, tiba-tiba saya datang menulis.
kenapa?
kenapa?
sebab saya mengantuk sekarang dan tidak mahu tidur.

okay, i've no topic to talk about.
i've come across something that i should 'campak jauh-jauh buang ke longkang belakang rumah.'
but but gatal tangan, klik klik.
dan tengok.
hati pecah lagi.
aduhai.
betapa fragilenya hati kamu Nadiah.
bukan kamu janji hendak duduk senyap-senyap, baik-baik.
ubah jadi muslimah yang baik.
kenapa buka semula history yang pedih dan bodoh itu?
tengok, sekarang dah moody.
and and rasa nak dengar lagu-lagu zaman dahulu.
dushhhh Nadiah!

lupakan lupakan.
kan ada Allah.
Dia boleh pujuk awak.
hanya Dia saja yang kekal.
:'(

oh, dan sewaktu saya sedih.
di twitter ada ini:

Sebaik-baik wanita adalah yang tidak memandang dan dipandang.

(Saidatina Aisyah RA)

Retweet from QuranHadis.

saya mahu jadi wanita sedemikian.

busy April!

2011-04-12T11:12:00.000+01:00

assalammualaikum wbt!
alhamdulillah, after weeks, ada juga depan lappy!
just a very short update!
mahu berjalan-jalan spring break! :)
doakan perjalanan ini diberkati!
daa people!

memories.

2011-03-29T20:10:00.001+01:00

assalammualaikum and hi people.
im going to write about the things that happened to me TODAY.
29th of March 2011. :)
it was my last day of SBE at westlands school.
there was not much to do except for distributing questionnaire and doing a presentation on my beloved country.
but, yesterday, i was shocked to heard that my SBE partner was admitted to hospital.
by the way, my partner is May.
she faced some problems and as it was getting worst, she was admitted to Derriford sepital.
and she told me during the full dress rehearsal for MFEST.
at first, i was very worried.

worried about her condition.
ye la kan, we are now away from our family.
jauh + sakit + sedih = not good laaa!

worried about doing the presentation.
as mentioned before, i have stage fright.

makanya, i spent the night before thinking about the presentation.
cesh =.='
and today, everything went well!
i managed to present in one class only.
they kids were so talkative and active.
they asked lots of questions.
and i enjoyed answering each and every one of them.

do you have snow over there?
can you show us your money?
why are you wearing that? (pointing at my tudung)
do you miss your home?

alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.
thank you Allah.
thank you to those who motivates me yesterday! ;)

as May was not well, some of us planned to give her a visit after we finished our SBE.
after praying and changing clothes, off we went to Derriford sepital.
rombongan berjalan kaki to visit May.
there were seven of us.
once we arrived there, ~~adalah berlangsung aktiviti-aktiviti comel.~~
and after that, we asked the lady at the reception for May's ward.
the hospital looked small, but dalamnya, besar + panjang! :)
she was in Tavy Ward.
her section, G5 was situated at the left end of the ward.
there were 5 beds and she was the only young lady over there.
the others semuanya nenek-nenek belaka.
so, we chatted with May and asked about her condition.
she is getting better.
hopefully, eloklah nanti.
and the nurse said she could be discharge today!
happy tak? :)
when May was busy packing, some of us were 'distracted' by one of the nenek's voice.
she kinda whined: 'it hurts, hurt'
we turned around and saw the old lady.
being extremely friendly, 4 of us went and have a chat with the old lady.
her name is Eidie (that was written on her sheets of examining paper)
she mumbled and mumbled.
i don't really understand her, but Aisyah, gave her fullest attention Eidie.
she talked about a mysterious man named Peter, whom we don't know. (she did not tell us who he was)
Eidie said, she misses him. :'(
and she wont see him again.
Aisyah terus saja melayan nenek itu.
Nik talked to the other nenek beside Eidie.
her name is Kathleen, she was the only one who could speak clearly.
she has grandsons in Oman, Nik talked to her most of the time.
Ayein and i moved to another nenek as we could her looking at us with the-i-want-somebody-to-talk-to-me-too look.
how could we ever ignore that look?
berborak-borak and she wished us good luck.
she said to Ayein and i:
'if i never have the chance to meet you again, i wish you all the best!'
dengar dia cakap macam tu, i felt touched sudah.
sangat sweet kot, to get it from the people that we met for the first time, and we know that they will never see us again.
their looks were sincere.
each and every one of them.
and as we said goodbye to them, i felt relieved, because today, we cheered them up at times they were having difficulty to walk, to talk or even to move.
Thank you Allah for giving us the opportunity to experience this precious moments.
:)

one of the neneks tulis kat nik's palm. comel kan?

tengok, entry ini jadi emo!
so, sementara kita semua sihat-sihat ini, be good to others.
you'll never know, you can brighten up one's life with your smile.
and your smile can make others smile too.
and give them hope. :)

phewwww!!
until then people!
daaaa~ :)

pengalaman indah 2.

2011-03-25T19:55:00.000Z

assalammualaikum and hi people!
this evening i would like to continue my 'pengalaman indah' series. :)
it happened last winter which happened to be my first winter here.
i spent my winter holidays in Manchester for FUiYO.
bet you guys still remember the entry.
this entry isn't the continuation or anything.
this is a totally different story.
it's about my first meeting with Nurul Syuhadah Hasnan, here, in the UK.
i never thought i would be able to meet her as she attended a different programme.
PMS, Ummi my dear friend went there too and i did kirim something to be given to budak kecik tu!
mana tahu kan, Allah pertemukan kami di bumi Manchester.

as usual, we know each other's whereabouts.
almost everyday message. :)
and when she ask me whether im still in Manchester, pelik la kan.
turned out to be yang her gang also want to stop by Manchester before they headed to other places.
yang tak syoknya, on the day she arrived, was the day i departed from Manchester.
i was really hoping she would arrive early so we could meet.
and she did messaged me when they departed from Sheffield, if i was not mistaken.
and i excitedly, waiting for her arrival message.
and oh ye, for your info, i was having flu and a lil bit of fever during that time.

when she said she arrived, oh mak aiii~
excitednya aku! haha!!! ;)
but they all nak gerak ke Old Trafford pagi tu, and my gang planned to lepak around the book-stores.
makanya, i decided that we should at least meet for 5 minutes before she goes to Old Trafford kan~
terhegeh-hegeh laa aku ajak Pia, Hana and Wawa keluar untuk lepak ke kedai buku.
and of course, my dearies knew that i was going to meet Nurul Syuhadah. :)
kiteorang message je all the way nak jumpa tu, bajet nak cakap la jumpa kat mana etc etc.
rupa-rupanya, rumah yang Nurul Syuhadah stayed to near to MoonLight (betul ke eja ni?)
pusing ke kiri, tadaaaaaaaaaa!!!

i saw her.
i saw cici.
i saw Nurul Syuhadah.
:)
okay and all of a sudden....
~~emooooo!!!~~
lari-lari, pergi peluk dia.
i crieddddddddddd~~
air mata bercucuran~
terharu jumpa dia kat sini, bumi UK.
yeah, we've always talked on how we're going to meet when we are here.(zaman IPKB and INTEC)
Alhamdulillah, jumpa jugaaa~
payah tau nak jumpakan?
so sebab itulah, saya menangis.
and she cried too (most probably, sebab i cried)
teheeeeee~
sorry ci!
and guess what!
the drama happened kat tepi tong sampah! @_@
pathetic laaaaa~
and then, snapped pictures.
nantikan gambar hidung mata merah! ;)

as she was rushing to go to Old Trafford with her gang, we only managed to lepak at one book store.
sekejap jaa rasa.
tak syok woooo~
but redha la.
i walked her home and met her friends.
and before she departed, i hugged her again.
felt proud that both of us managed to be here at last. :)

cici aka Nurul Syuhadah. :)

comelkan?

jahat!

tu tong sampah bersejarah tu. @_@

so yeah.
this was and still is my pengalaman indah.
meeting my bestest friend.
no words could actually describe the feeling maaa~
faham-faham saja la~

pesanan buat semua sahabat-sahabat:

‘Teman yang paling baik adalah apabila kamu melihat wajahnya, kamu teringat akan Allah, mendengar kata-katanya menambahkan ilmu agama, melihat gerak-gerinya teringat mati..’

insyaAllah ya? :)

dikir barat.

2011-03-24T23:07:00.001Z

assalammualaikum and hi people!
tonight im going to write about my current activity.
dikir barat!
as ive mentioned before, for Malaysian Cultural Fiesta 2011, ill be performing dikir barat with my sweethearts.
we've started practising ermmm, i can't even remember when.
but the practise make my schedule pack! :)
sunday to thursday.
8.00pm until 11.00pm.

and bear in mind, our journey is not as sweet as sugar and not as easy as ABC.
zaman dahulu kala, there were only a few people seemed interested with dikir barat.
and we almost lose hope as we thought there would be no vocalist, no instrument people.
tak kan la nak awok-awok jaa menyanyi macam orang gila kan?
luckily, there were 'angels' who were willing to join the team! :)
we managed to find our singers and instrument people. :)
sangat happy okay?
and thus, our practise started!
i was excited to learn all the steps and to sing along.

as time goes by, we improved so much and i sometimes feels kinda bored going to practise.
i bet, im not the only one right? :p
but, going to dikir barat could make me happy.
there were times when i felt down and lost.
with the burdens on my shoulder, responsibilities and not to forget : ASSIGNMENT~
but once i sat on my place and started clapping my hand and following the rhythm, all of my problems fade away for a while.
:)
and my sweethearts help me too with their jokes and stories.
not to say, dikir barat penghilang masalah yang hebat, but practising with them gives me more spirit? :)
and yeah, i love dikir so very much!
dont know how will i spend my time after MFEST nanti?
ermm.

i will surely miss my sweethearts' actions and behaviours.
lari sana lari sini.
menari-nari during break.
terjah refreshment macam tak pernah jumpa makanan.
ajuk usop hantu kak limah~ :)
tengok video youtube yang pelik-pelik.
tunggu judge bagi bintang and komen.
:)

gamba tak lengkap. ada yang not in the pic.
my sweethearts.

manusia.

2011-03-23T12:12:00.000Z

assalammualaikum and hi people!
today i want to talk about manusia.
specifically, their behaviours.
:)
i've been hiding my feelings for quite some times now.
i just feel mistreated by some people.
why must they do this to me?
i've tried my best to develop new skills, being the person they want to be.
but still, nada. nil.

bukan semua orang baik di dunia ni.
ada yang bertopengkan wajah 'innocent'.
ada yang bertopengkan 'kata-kata yang manis'.
come on people.
just show your true colours.
people will at least respect you.
erm.

sebahagian luahan hati saya.
:)
Ya Allah, tolong jaga hatiku ini.
saya tak mahu jadi budak jahat.
huhu~

Malaysian Cultural Fiesta 2011.

2011-03-16T19:07:00.001Z

assalammualaikum and hai people!
as i've mentioned earlier, i'll be writing about the events that i'll be handling/attending.
and i choose to write the one happening soon.

it's MARJON Malaysian Cultural Fiesta 2011!
it will be held on the 31st of March.
and the event starts at 1o am until 2 pm.

what do we have to offer during this event?
Malaysians MARJON will :

- set up booth that will take you on a journey to Malaysia. They will tell you stories and legends. There will also be booth on henna painting if i wasn't mistaken :)
- have cooking demonstartion (i think). so, there'll be lots of Malaysian food during that day. and bear in mind that Malaysians MARJON are good cooks! it's finger licking good man!
- have a showcase of Malaysian Traditional Games, it sure sounds interesting~ you can try out the games once they explained and demonstrate them to you.
- perform amazing dances ranges from Malay to Borneo dance. There'll be dikir barat too *wink*wink* i'm in it~ ;) ~~tu yang higlight gak tu~~~

there are lots more, but i can't remember them.
my bad, sorry~

krekkkkk!
we intend to promote Malaysia during this event to the locals of Plymouth.
we would like them to get a glimpse of Malaysian life.
those activities are interesting aite?
:)

but no pain, no gain people!
we work hard to make this event a successful one.
hopefully, it will go on smoothly on the day! :)
insyaAllah~

by the way,
i'm in the Promotion Division!
promote merata-rata!!

may I have the strength and sincerity to do all the works given (not on this event saja, on other events too)
amiinnn~
insyaAllah!

one event done! (more to come)
can't wait for 312st of march 2011~

till then.
daaaaaa~

p/s: i'm in the middle of doing assignment!

bad Nad!!!

pendek.

2011-03-15T00:16:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
just a short one!
there will be a few updates on the events that i'll be attending and handling!
can't wait to share it with you guys!
but for now,
i want to go to sleep!
tomorrow would be my first day at Westlands School, Torquay for SBE.
new environment!
new people!
hopefully Allah helps me throughout the journey
insyaAllah~
daa people~

internet.

2011-03-14T15:45:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
i promised for updates, but failed to do so!
why?
not because i'm lazy or whatsoever.
it's because of my internet connection prob!
bersabarlah wahai hati.
for four days, i suffered.
not because i access my facebook or twitter account.
at this time around, i have to face with a few important works!
phewww.
merempat ke laptop kawan and pinjam!

and today, after my elective class, i went to the ICT room and asked for help~
i stayed there for 2 hours!
pergh!
memang bestlah!

but Alhamdulillah!
semuanya selesai.
harap-harap tak ada masalah lagi la~
:)

setelah sebulan

2011-03-08T20:34:00.000Z

dan sehari, saya update blog again.

Assalammualaikum!!!

akhirnya!
mula-mula ingatkan nak delete je blog ni.
sebabnya?

1. saya rasa tiada motif untuk menulis.
2. malas?
3. kekangan masa.

so, untuk merungkaikannya, ayuh kita teliti satu-satu masalah saya ni.

1. saya rasa tiada motif untuk menulis.
yes, sesungguhnya, i am very blur on the topics that i should write.
my life? ~~macam tak best jer~~.
lately, i think i must write something beneficial, makanya, kalau tak de topik, tak leh tulis.
logik tak?
in the end, setelah fikir banyak-banyak, tak tertulis jugak.

2. malas.
ini penyakit sejak azali.
Ya Allah, jauh-jauhkan la penyakit ini dari saya.
tak suka dia la.
bukanlah selalu malas, but sekali datang, mesti je berlanjutan, sampai berdraft-draft blogpost.
akhirnya, delete saja!
ngengggg!
*luckily tak famous cam orang lain, kalau tak jenuh kena rajin sepanjang masa update blog*
;)

3. kekangan masa.
oh ya! lupa nak inform *macam mana nak inform kalau tak update?*
i'm involved in dikir barat for MARJON Malaysian Festival 2011.
tu macam busy sikit.
we have practise almost every night.
from 8-11 pm.
and if tak de practise pun, i'm busy doing all the homework.
plus watching youtube? dramacrazy?
Subhanallah Nadiah!
tak berfaedah laaa kerja kamu!
*sila jangan ikut*
ceshhhh~
besides, ada juga berjalan-jalan menikmati pemandangan ciptaan Allah sambil menuntut ilmu.
(sungguh cetek ilmuku berbanding orang lain)
tak pe Nadiah, usaha lagi! :)

BLAH!

all of the above ialah reasons semata-mata.
i should not have any excuses kan?
because i have ~~very~~ good stuff to be written, but i couldn't find the right time and words to convey it.
and me being a procrastinator tegar!
memang laa hampeh! kan?
*alasan lagi*
SIGH~~~

but insyaAllah, i'll start writing again.
thanks adek sebab ingatkan akak!
:)

and below is the sneak peek of the things i had done/attend for the past few weeks!
busy girl maaa~
:p

cadbury world.

jalan-jalan plymouth AGAIN!

winchester.

my sayang's birhday!

okay!
enough for tonight!
i'll try my best to find time again~
to WRITE!!!
anggap ni homework REFLECTIVE LOG.
boleh?
insyaAllah!
:)

usrahku.

2011-02-06T21:45:00.001Z

assalammualaikum people!
:)
how are you?
semoga sentiasa dirahmatiNya.

i'm in the middle of reading my drama thingy; The Oresteia - Agamemnon.

bosan membaca sampai snap pic. =.='

macam nama object tak? :p

we are supposed to read Agamemnon, this Oresteia has 3 parts, but the introduction pun tak larat nak baca.

i fell in love with literature, but please don't let this ancient Greek drama fails me.
this is a tragedy, ~~eh not me,~~ the drama la, tragedy, but tak larat nak baca.
i can't differentiate the names, nampak macam nama manusia, pastu macam nama tempat.
heeeee~

and that is the reason saya stop membaca introduction.
i want to talk about my usrah.
before tu, apa itu usrah?
menurut encik musliminfoblog.blogspot.com,

Usrah dalam bahasa Arab ialah keluarga. Sebagai istilah, usrah bermaksud satu program tetap yang dianjurkan oleh kumpulan yang beriman dan bekerjasama untuk memahami dan menghayati Islam.

sudah jelas?
for me, usrah itu, ialah get together saya dan rakan-rakan dan we talk about the useful matters.
hal aqidah, ibadah, perangai masing-masing, kahwin, even masak-masak.
itu saya la.
tapi semestinya, kita kena ada usrah yang untuk mengingat antara satu sama lain tentang realiti kehidupan, mana betul, mana tidak.
kan?
my last official usrah, was in my Secondary School.
MasyaAllah, lamanya tiada usrah yang official, not to say, usrah yang 'borak-borak iman' - term House 32 ni tak elok, but we want something yang lebih concrete gitu, dengan guidance and all - my say la, semua orang ada pendapat masing-masing kan?
and again, not to say, kawan-kawan tak boleh bagi input yang baik.
everybody boleh bercakap and menyampaikan asalkan ada ilmu, ni kata-kata sahabat saya.

so, when my House 32 friends invited Hana and i to join their usrah, gembira hatiku.
ye la kan, hati saya tak sihat sangat, kena selalu jumpa doktor.
:)
sebab, sahabat-sahabat House 6 dah lama mula usrah, tertanya-tanya juga kan, manalah naqibah untuk House 20.
Alhamdulillah!
ada juga house yang sudi adopt both of us. :')

naqibah kami; kak fizah.
baik orangnya, lemah lembut.
~~bila kau nak jadi gitu nad?~~
ahlinya, House 32 and hana and nadiah.
comelkan kami?

jadi, on the 29th of january, bermula la journey ku untuk usrah.
excited, nervous.
almaklumlah, first time kan after years~
:)
dan dannnnn, bersyukur sangat-sangat.
banyak ilmu dapat.
tadabbur surah, kongsi-kongsi cerita.
and oh ye, that was the first meeting for House 32 with kak fizah too.
baru juga.
and in the end, kak fizah bagi kami something.
namanya, sticky index highlighter tabs. :)

comel. ^.^

one thing that i wanted all this while.
senang nak menanda.
suka sukaaaaaaa~

okay, itu saja nak tulis.
Alhamdulillah.
Thanks to Allah sebab buka hati saya untuk ikut majlis ilmu begini.
harap-harap berkekalan laa. :)
istiqamah yaa Nad?

of yassin recitation.

2011-02-05T12:12:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
hey ya! how are you?
hopefully you'll always be under His blessing.
InsyaAllah!

today is saturday and this marks the near end of CNY holidays for malaysian people.
yeah, all of you got a week of free time while kami belajar. =.='
haha!
i don't mind that~
going for family vacation.
merapatkan ukhwah tak gitu?
and yes, that was my family's agenda last week.
a family vacation and i was left alone here.
(mengada kau Nad)

okay okay, back to the topic today!

for those of you who doesn't know,
every week on thursday or friday, each muslimat's house will take turn to held kahfi/yassin recitation.

ada juga kahfi recitation but since maghrib is now around 5pm, kahfi recitation is replaced with yassin recitation. (surah kahfi kan dibaca setiap hari khamis malam jumaat) ^.^
on the 4th of february which was yesterday was my house's turn.
cuak kot!
because my house consist of two muslimats only; Hana and I.
the other two - Punes and Nilar.
my sayang hana, suggested we cooked nasi yang ala-ala nasi minyak.
sambal ikan bilis.
layannnnnnnn~
pastu telur rebus.
air teh and not to forget puding roti.
makan talam! and syukur, semua makanan habis.
heeeeeeee~
selesai part makan!
hana baca doa and i will be the one yang bagi perkongsian ilmu.
woooooooooooo~
berdebar-debar ni because i know i was not good enough to be a 'majlis ilmu' host.
alhamdulillah~
sahabat-sahabat bagai sokongan! aiceh!! (macam nak bagi ceramah je nak nervous ni) =.='
but you got what i mean kan?
i can talk nonsense, and make jokes but to touch on islamic topic, i was scared, mana la tahu, maksud tak sampai ke, tersalah bagi info ke.
berdosa tauu?
nevertheless, i tried! hana and i decided that we should talk on hadith 20.
we chose this hadith as house number is 20.
i know, it's lame choosing based on our house number, but hey, semua pun ilmu kan?
hee! so here goes!

source: fortyhadith.iiu.edu.my

Daripada Abu Mas'uud 'Uqbah ibn 'Amru al-Ansarie al-Badrie r.a. beliau berkata: Rasulullah SAW telah bersabda: Sesungguhnya antara kata-kata ungkapan Kenabian terdahulu yang dapat diketahui dan dipetik oleh manusia ialah: Jika engkau tidak malu, maka lakukanlah apa sahaja yang engkau mahu. (Hadis riwayat al-lmam al-Bukhari).

intipatinya: malu.
ya malu~
apa itu malu?
malu dalam arabnya ialah haya' which was derived from the word hayat which means:
life.
kehidupan.
jadi secara ringkasnya, malu itu merangkumi kehidupan seharian kita.
apa sahaja yang kita lakukan itu patut ada rasa malu.

okayyy~
serba-sedikitlah tentang sharing malam tadi.
wanita and lelaki wajib ada perasaan malu itu, especially, kita ya wanita!

kerana wanita banyak menyumbang kepada kemungkaran~
dan wanita ialah fitnah terbesar.

Dari Usamah bin Zaid r.a bahawa Nabi s.a.w bersabda "Tidak ada suatu fitnah (bencana) yang lebih besar bahayanya dan lebih bermaharajalela-selepas wafatku terhadap kaum lelaki selain daripada fitnah yang berpunca daripada kaum wanita"

(Bukhari, Muslim, Imam Ahmad, at-Tirmidzi, Nasa’i dan Ibnu Majah)

sebab Rasulullah s.a.w ada menyatakan yang wanita ialah golongan yang paling ramai di neraka. :'(
naudzubillah.
jauhkan laaah kami dari cengkaman api neraka.
baik sahabat-sahabat.
jadi, wajarlah buat kita untuk menjaga peribadi diri, kehormatan diri, berusaha untuk beribadah sebaik-baiknya kepada Allah.
kiranya serba-serbi baiklah!
dan sentiasa berdoa agar kita tak termasuk dalam golongan yang menjadi fitnah itu, walaupun sebenarnya agak sukar. hmmmm.
tu la, i told you, i am not good enough nak 'borak-borak iman' ni.
kan dah melalut.

jadi, kiranya, semua oranglah, tak kisah lelaki or perempuan, harus menjaga perasaan malu mereka.

kalau nak malu tu, malu la bertempat~
malu lah sebab kita tak pernah cukup beribadah kepada Allah.
malu lah sebab kita tak menangis kerana Allah.
malu lah sebab kita solat lewat.
malu malu maluuuu kerana tak buat perkara baik.
tapi, jangan malu untuk bertanya.
jangan malu untuk menimba ilmu.
:)

kerana, walau apa pun yang kita lakukan, Allah sentiasa melihat kita.

'Sungguh, Dia Maha Melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan.'

(Surah Fussilat:40)

sekian!
terima kasih kepada sahabat-sahabat yang sudi mai House 20 semalam.
terima kasih kerana sudi makan semua makan tak seberapa itu.
terima kasih kepada semualahhh~ :)
sayang korang semua.

it means a lot to us.
House 20.
:)

dia yang aku sayang.

2011-02-02T00:35:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
hey ya!
i am better today!
alhamdulillah!
berkat nasihat-nasihat orang yang saya sayang dan juga hasil berjalan-jalan di city. ;)

actually, i do not have the attention to update my blog tonight.
i was doing my work sikit when one notification from my roomate, FARAH WAHIDAH, muncul kat fb.
she shared a link on my wall.
ingatkan apa lah, it turns out to be a song by david archuleta - elevator.
okay fine, i din know the song pun, first time dengar.
but yang pealing best is, farah said, when she hears the song, she remembers me.
:')
okaaayyyy~ i am so touched.

click click biar besar!

think of me?

think of me!!

tak kisahlah dia saja-saja je ke (which i know tak mungkin)

i still find it sangat sweet.

(saya senang touching-touching sejak kebelakangan ni)

farah and i were not best friends.

itu, yang purple. :)

she was and still is my roomate (although we live in a different house now :p )

lain wooooo levelnya!

she has her gang, i have my gang.

but in the end, after all the fightings, lepakings, shopping, cuci mata, we'll be in our room.

AD 5.

lima. 5. itu AD 5.

yeah, tak ke mananya pun kami ni.

and during that time, we'll exchange stories.

gelak-gelak ketawa, gaduh banyak kali!

and to her, i tell my problems.

orang pertama i'll ask for advice. (technically, because she was just behind me)

oh ye, she was the one yang always teman saya ke toilet kul 2 a.m.

i won't forget that dear, kenangan tu!

and there was this time, i was so pissed off dengan dia sebab pinjam tudung berzaman gila, tak pulang-pulang.

haha! she did return it in the end, but the replacement la, as the ori one memang dah termaktub to be hers. :)

i think, she brings the tudung here.

and betullah, this song reminds me of us, during IPKB times.

:')

sekarang bila nak rasa begini?

rasa jauhhhhhh walau dekat.

huuu~

extracts from the lyrics.

Next time I'll get it right
Next time I'll be okay
I'll have a different dream tonight
Tomorrow's another day

Elevator goes up
Elevator come down
And you just go with the flow
Until your feet are back on the ground
It's an endless ride
Sometimes it takes you up
Sometimes it tears you down inside
But it's the butterflies
That keep you feeling so alive, so alive
You gotta get back that high

You'll never know
What you're gonna get
What you don't expect will come and find you
If you laugh or cry
If you run and hide
But it's all right

sila layan this song ye?

mana tahu, it will remind you to somebody jugak~ ;)

si cantik dan lori. :)
you know i love you right?

cukuplah.

2011-01-31T21:40:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
hey ya people.
i've been away for quite some times.
why?
i don't know.

ada satu lubang besar dalam hati saya.
:'(
i know hati saya sakit.
saya nak sembuhkan dia.
tapi saya degil.
ya, i admit that i am not that strong-willed like others.
benarlah, yang hidayah itu bagai menyapa-nyapa bahu kita bagaikan angin lalu.
i am trying hard.

but there are problems.
enough.
noktah.

google images.

do you want to know something?

2011-01-24T12:57:00.001Z

honestly.

i am very nervous about the upcoming test.

another 1 hour plus before the test starts!

all the best to you and me.

jangan cuak-cuak berlebihan!

nanti binasa test! ;)

my sayangs.

2011-01-23T23:25:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
hey yaaaaaaaa!
apa khabar?
i'm currently revising my Language Awareness notes.
the First Years will be having a test tomorrow.
ketaq lutut laa wei!
okay.
apa-apa pun, i feel like writing.
konon-kononnya mahu melepas tensi.
just a short update about my sayangs.
my nephews and nieces.

the only picture i have yang ada the four of them. :)

rizq : he is his second year of kindergarten. previously, he went to q dees. now, alhamdulillah! ke genius aulad. hopefully, he'll gain more knowledge. belajar rajin-rajin ye sayang?

wafriy: erm, this lil guy will be entering his play-school after chinese new year holidays. same place with his brother, genius aulad. senyum lebar mak busu dengar. jumpa ramai buddies ek adik? *he insisted people calling him adik albeit he has a younger sis now*

thara: si mulut becok yang comel! she's getting cleverer each and every day i skype with her. she's learning some words. beg, jatuh, sepit, duck. but still, she calls me aya aya ayaaaaaa! adorable kid she is.

zahra: arrhhh! i missed seeing her growing up~ dah pandai terbalikkan diri sendiri. and my bro-in-law said she is one clever baby. alhamdulillah! and her face really resembles her brothers. mesti dah besar nanti cantikkan? your brothers kacak-kacak.

don't grow up too fast.

wait for mak busu ye?

okay, entri ini memang cam gediks.

tak pe, saya ingat kesayangan saya.

sedikit.

2011-01-18T23:30:00.002Z

assalammualaikum people!
hey yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
ada juga entri for tonight.
just a simple one i guess.
it's regarding my 'rinduness' to everything back at home; Malaysia.

saya rindu mak saya.
saya rindu nak kena marah dengan semua orang.
saya rindu duduk kat buaian dengan sepupu-sepupu saya.
saya rindu TV rumah saya.
saya rindu story books kat umah abg mat.
saya rindu nak cuci kereta mereka.
saya rindu nak tolong mak lipat baju.
saya rindu nak tumbuk sambal belacan.
saya rindu buatkan susu untuk budak-budak kecik tu.
saya rindu nak bergosip dengan pak cik mak cik saudara saya.
saya rindu bantal busuk saya.
saya rindu sandals saya. (apakah?!)
saya rindu bergaduh dengan kak imah.
saya rindu main-main dengan anak-anak buah saya.
saya rindu nak hangout dengan kawan baik saya.
saya rindu nak merengek-rengek tak mahu pulang ke KB.
saya rindu nak share stories once i got to AD5.
saya rindu nak unpack my stuff letak balik kat almari berhabuk tu.
saya rindu berjemaah setiap isnin di surau asrama.
saya rindu gaduh-gaduh dengan classmates.
saya rindu kena marah dengan lecturers.
saya rindu nak jalan kaki ke PT.
saya rindu nak hafal lines untuk teater.
saya rindu nak dengar nasihat yang berguna.
saya rindu nak jual roti.
saya rindu kawan-kawan maktab.
saya rindu nak naik kereta pak cik pebet.
saya rindu cuci baju kat maktab.
saya rindu nak belajar literature.
saya rindu nak tidur dalam kelas.

phewwwwww~
ini adalah secebis rasa rinduku terhadap apa yang ku tinggalkan di Malaysia.
bersabar wahai hati.
kau akan kembali.
insyaAllah!

my dearest friend tulis kat status facebook dia:

‎::rindu itu adalah..anugerah dari Allah..insan yang berhati nurani..punyai rasa rindu ::

(rindu by Hijjaz)

insyaAllah!

saya berharap saya termasuk dalam golongan yang berhati nurani itu.
aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

'till then!
daaaa~

numbers.

2011-01-18T00:40:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
eheem.
today mahu menulis juga!
pasal apa?
n.u.m.b.e.r.s
what numbers?
alaaa, benda alah yang people used to play in FB tu.
you give one number to your friends, then they will describe you through their status.
and the best things is; only you and that person knows the number.
since i'm not playing it secara besar-besaran and only gave my numbers to a few people, so i got back 3 numbers. :)
and malas nak buat status.
here goes!

1201
one cute girl who is quite clumsy and blur.
i always make fun of her pronunciation. (macam laa kau sebut betul sangat Nad!)
she is HOT! and sweet and kind and loves to help people.
i think she once hated me for one particular reason, but that was then.
i'm not that close with this girl till one incidence that changed our opinion on friendship.
she showed me that i need to share my love with others and not being possessive.
i'm still trying dear. and since that day, we became best friends.
oppsss. we have one term for our relationship.
she is my full time other half. :)
now, i can tell all my secrets with her.
i love hanging out with her, and the most important thing is, i love her.

999
crazy! outrageous! hot! cute!
okay, i planned to describe her with one word, but i ended up with four.
one amazing girl but still, very sensitive one.
she isn't my best friend, she's more than that.
at first, i was quite blur with this girl's attitude.
kejap okay, kejap confusing.
sometimes, i get angry with her atas sebab tak logik.
we shared so many things in the past two years.
some of my darkest secrets are with her.
some of hers too. (i guess)
dia sangaaaaaaaaatttt baikkkkkkkkkkkk!!!
we did crazy things, she helped me a lot if i'm sad.
she's one good advisor tooooooo!
marjon! marjon!!! *sambil pegang bahu masing-masing*
i missed her!

111
this girl is pretty, with lots of admirers.
waktu zaman tok kaduk,
i was like: 'apa kena dengan budak ni?' as she talked in a way that i don't really prefer.
but as time goes by, i get used to it and tak kisah pun as she was once a debator, pemidato sekolah.
she has her own style in expressing herself.
one thing for sure is, she is one of the people that i can't wait to see if there were any presentations.
ada style gitu.
i'm not so close with her until recently.
sekarang lebih boleh get along lebih baik!
one of my closest buddy now!
she is matured for her age compared to me. (malu saya laaahhh)
and i'm proud to be her friend.
sayang awak!

pengalaman indah 1.

2011-01-16T22:14:00.000Z

assalammualaikum people!
hey yaaaaaaa!
at last, i have the spirit to write again!
:) alhamdulillah! thanks to Him for guiding me.
nak tulis blog pun malas, apatah lagi assignment.
tak gitu Nad?

okayyyyyyy~
kenapa pengalaman indah tajuknya?
because i miss home very much.
so i want to scribble down the memories that i had in maktab, house, with friends and foes.
and why '1'?
because this is the first one lah!
there'll be others too.
insyaAllah, hopefully, i'll have the will and ilham to write it down.

and which memory would be the lucky one?
there are zillionsssssssssss that i'll remember, but this particular one, i chose as i just reminiscing it with my dear hana.

language games during tesl camp 2009!

there were lots of activities during tesl camp.
and each IPG was asked to organize/handle an activities.
my maktab was selected to organize the language games, in collaboration with I4P. (until now, tak sure camna nak eja name IPG mereka. sorry!)

thus, our journey started!
we did the contacting via phone with I4P's representative.
aduh makkk aiii!
payahnyaaa!
obviously, we had different opinion in handling this stuff.
when we suggested A, they wanted B.
at one point, ummi and i (since we were the in charge) sangat la bengang.
but alhamdulillah, all went well.
we discussed thoroughly, exchanged information on this and that.
trying to set up the place by imagining it. HAHA.
the marjonians even had the trial and error session.
and our seniors; cohort 5 students helped us with that.
thank you dear seniors!
basically, we had it all in our hands.
the materials, the instruction, the movements, the people in charge for each activities.
semua dah ready.
but, Allah is the Almighty!
kalau He wants it to happen, walau bagaimana preparednya kita, something will happen juga akhirnya!

the same case happened with our language games.
the game was scheduled in the evening, around 4.00 pm.
earlier that morning, all of us went to the respective schools to feel the school's environment in Kedah.
we did some activities with them and we had fun.

depan sekolah.

makan saja!

my sayangs.

after that, dalam bas, adalah a few kejadian berlaku.
and it turned out to be yang our bus had some problems with the air-cond/engine.
we were supposed to go for the pekan rabu sight-seeing.
at that time, memanglah gelabah!
will we ever made it?
eventually, our bus sampai balik at our camp, but ummi and i skipped the tour as we volunteered to stay, in case, there were things to be done with the venue, etc before the activities started.
jadinya, ummi and i slept waktu tengahari tu.
hampeh. =.='
around 3.30pm/4.00pm, we were ready at the venue for our language games activities.
dah check dah all the things, semuanya okay.
the other students pun dah sampai and they started to gather for the language games activities.
I4P's team was ready too.

masalahnya, mana marjon IPKB?
they were not here!

then, we received a phone call saying that our bus rosak di tengah-tengah pekan!
and pak cik driver was finding workshop to fix it.
Ya Allah, berdegup laju jantungku.
rasa nak tercabut saja.
apakah?
our fellow friends were waiting.
I4P's team was waiting too.

at last, ummi and i decided that the language games should start without the IPKB's station.
i was disappointed, frustrated, kecewa, depressed!
why la happen to us?
and in in front of hundreds of people and lecturers??
and there were only ummi and i (IPKB people).
we tried calling them hundreds of time! (hyperbole jer)
they said, 'we're on our way'
and the game already started!

then, we saw them.
we saw our fellow marjonians!
getting off from the bus, taking out the materials for the games.
and they rushed to the venue which was actually situated at the top of the hill. =.='
tangganya banyak!
and i saw with my own eyes, they ran.
they ran with their heels on/off.
they looked tired, but they ran.
and i cried.
okay!
~~saya menangis.~~
saya sedih and kesian tengok sahabat-sahabat saya berlari bersungguh-sungguh to reach the place.
and as soon as they arrived, dengan termengah-mengahnya, they set up their stations, and continue with the games.
SEDIH okay?
mereka sungguh bersemangat!!!
and alhamdulillah!
the games went well.
in fact, they did a wonderful, great (korang letak semua adjective yang best-best) job!
although they were tired, sweating, panas, badan melekit-lekit, mereka buat juga!
i was and still is very proud of them.
apalah function kami berdua di situ without the other 25 marjonians?
:)
kesimpulannya!
we're one when we're together.
together we work to achieve great things in our life.
(okay melalut dah)

aishh!
legaaa!
satu luahan perasaan berjaya!
jadi, inilah dia entri for tonight!
:)

cantik-cantik dan kacak-kacak.

p/s: waktu language games, no pics! mana nak tangkap gambar, semuanya kelam-kabut!
thanks for the sweet memories guys!
credits to mages for these pics.

nak tulis apa?

2011-01-13T21:00:00.003Z

assalammualaikum!
phewwwww~
jauhnya jarak from one entry to another.
my friends almost everyday menulis.
bila skill mahu ada?
okayy.
this was the draft for entah bila ntah!
waaaa~
loser la nadiah!
i'll write again tonight!
:)

cerita FUiYO 2010.

2011-01-07T00:10:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
hey ya!
sekarang i'm in full spirit to tell stories about my journey to FUiYO!
thank you sayang-sayang sebab bagi semangat balik.

apa itu FUiYO?

Fun With iluvIslam's Youth Overseas

seperti yang semua sedia maklum, time winter break, haruslah ada program yang menarik.
there were a few more such as PMS, JUMS, and PUISI.
but i chose to go to FUiYO.
kenapa ya?
kenapa saya pergi FUiYO?
ini semua kerana galakan senior-senior dan kawan-kawan.
and alhamdulillah.
i was one of the earliest to register. (yakin saja)
aiman tag saja gambar FUiYO, terus laju-laju register.
after a few weeks register, barulah promotion JUMS, PUISI and PMS sampai.
sorry encik-encik program.
i made my choice. :)

firstly, i was quite worried as i was not certain about my 'niat' going there.
adakah sebab nak jalan-jalan atau apa?
jumpa kawan ke??!
but, ada senior yang baik hati and comel kata, kita menikmati keindahan ciptaan Allah sambil tu, enjoy la program semua.
after that, i tried hard laa untuk betulkan niat.
at times, rasa sangat malas nak pergi, tapi gagahkan juga.

and we departed days earlier as we stopped by and melawat sisters and brothers di portsmouth.
opss, lupa pua nak bagitahu, we were joined by sisters from canterbury!
seronok gila! bertambah kawan-kawan.

and that night juga, terjadinya perpisahan antara kami, sisters plymouth dengan akak senior cohort 5.
ish, i did not shed any tears that night.
bajet gagah la konon-kononnya.
tapi sangat sedih bila akak-akak sayang nak balik Malaysia.

our journey to portsmouth wasn't that easy.
ada brother yang terambil train salah.
aish, at that time, saya fikir, 'if that happened to me, macam mana?'
confirm menangis non stop.
but brother yang tersalah naik train itu, cool saja! :)

cantik.

we arrived kat portsmouth malam.
sangat malam!
segan wooo bila sampai rumah vida.
but dia sangat sweet.
sangat baik.
layan kami elok-elok sahaja.
what were our activities there?
jalan-jalan ke gunwharf!

seronok tengok kedai-kedai!

plymouth + canterbury + portsmouth.

tempat shooping yang can make your wallet empty wei!
gila tak?
apa lagi ek buat kat portsmouth?
oh yeeeeeeeeeeee~
berjalan dengan beg yang berat gilaaaaaaa!
but it was fun cause i was with my dearest ones.

then, next destinationnya ke manchester.
we stayed at kak q's house.
okay! staying at manchester sangat best kot!
orang-orang manchester sangat baik!
and and di rusholme is the heaven for halal food.
boleh dapat halal food dalam sekelip mata sahaja!
aish, bila nak sampai FUiYO ni?

okayyyyyyy~
after a day kot di manchester, off we went to waddow hall for FUiYO.
seronok memang seronok because we would definitely gain knowledge and met new friends.
ada problem waktu nak ke waddow hall, the access there was quite difficult due to the weather.
pak cik bas tu cam marah gila, but he still helped us to get to our destination.
thank you ye pak cik.
when we arrived there, ya Allah, cantiknya tempat itu, but it was smelly.
i can't smell sebab agak berhingus hidung waktu itu.
bak kata sisters, bau nature. :)
accommodation nya mantap.
i got STABLES! along with hana and auni and sisters lain yang tak kenal lagi.
like apakah?
kena stay di kandang kuda kah?
the style is like stables, but it was nice except that it was VERYYYYYYYYY cold.
winterlah katakan!
and oh yeah, the snow kat manchester, tebalnyaaaaaaaa!

alright people!
FUiYO time!
the theme was METAMORPHOSIS.
macam butterfly tuuuuuuuuu.

the cycle of being butterfly which started with telur? then caterpillars, kepompong comel and at last they managed to spread their wings.

click here kalau nak jengah website FUiYO.
it was basically about the process of finding your potential.
potential apa?
apa-apa sahaja yang dapat membantu diri kita sendiri dan orang sekeliling.
there were 6 talks by 4 great scholars. (scholars ker? penceramah kot)
and 8 LDKs with the help of great facilitators.

sejujur-jujurnya, banyak ilmu yang saya dapat sepanjang program ini.
bohonglah kalau saya katakan stiada sekelumit pun rasa bosan sepanjang program.
tapi, almost all the time, i actually get myself to focus and listen to the penceramahs.

semuanya tentang FLY.

are you ready to fly?
it's time to fly.
now we can fly.
butterfly effect.

haa amek kau!
memang rasa nak terbang sungguh-sungguh.
LDK pula memang mantap.
we savour the picturesque view of waddow hall, we learnt about ourselves and our friends.
we tried to be a consultant, we fought, we fall and we stand up again~
phewwwwww!
memang unforgettable memories.

kumpulan 2. :)

but, ada yang sedihnya, my dearest sayang hana, fell sick during her second day.
so she didn't manage to join most of the activities.
tapi kami, kawan-kawan ada untuk share. ;)

and oh ye, tujuan saya pergi FUiYO juga ialah untuk cari my hidden potential la kan.
and kebetulan, few days before itu, akak sayang ada bagitahu kami tentang hadis logam.

“Manusia seperti logam, terpilihnya mereka semasa jahiliyyah terpilih juga mereka semasa Islam, sekiranya mereka faham”.

haaa~
akak sayang cakap, semua orang ada kelebihan masing-masing.
so, it's our duty to find it and bring goodness kepada human being.
aiceh, jadi saya pun berkobar-kobar nak cari.
and FUiYO's theme memang fits me.
erk.
masalahnya, saya raasa saya ada masalah keyakinan diri kot.
i couldn't find any potential in me.
=.='
sampai satu tahap, kawan saya kata:
'it takes time Nad!'
then i realised, semuanya kena mula sikit-sikit.
maybe benda yang bagi kita tak berguna, rupa-rupanya sangat membantu orang lain.
or maybe apa yang kita rasa biasa, itulah hidden potential kita.
jadi ayuh Nadiah, cari hidden potential kamu!
jangan jatuh.
kena istiqamah.
kamu semua bantu saya ya?
semoga saya boleh contribute something dalam mana-mana bidang.
insyaAllah!

okay stop dulu!
ada banyak lagi stories to tell.
tapi tak mahu la semua compact dalam satu entri.
pengsan laa orang nak baca.

jauh.

2011-01-05T21:32:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
aduhai.
bersawangnya blog!
habuk merata-rata.
kosong.
tiada updates!
kenapa?
banyak sebab!
i had a long journey this winter break.
and problems too!

okay, as mentioned earlier (post lama-lama), i was supposed to have a grammar test.
but guess what?
cancel maaaa~
and that was how i started my winter break!

lepak-lepak di rumah for a while.
then 19th of december, off we go to portsmouth!
jalan-jalan lagi.
then manchester for quite a few days.
ada fuiyo!
and jalan-jalan.
unfortunately, i was SICK at that time.
memang teruklah!

balik plymouth!
still sick and rumah bocor!
=.='
pathetic kan hidup?
i stayed at my friends' house for almost a week.
yeah doing nothing.

sekarang, 5th of january, barulah my house okay.
and im finally back at house 20e!

okay that's all for now.
still gotta figure out how to kemas my room.

no pictures kan?
malas la!

i know, lame update!
but what to do?
no mood~

cheers!
:)

of SBE presentation. ^.^

2010-12-16T14:10:00.000Z

ada comel. itu SBE. School Based Experience.

assalammualaikum!
aicehhhhh~
hati sudah girang.
kenapa?
presentation sudah lepas!
alhamdulillah!
it all went well this morning.
we started a bit late as we waited for the technician to set up the camera as we were being filmed!
yeahh baby!
our presentation were recorded and would be uploaded in learning space!
can't wait to see how we actually performed just now! ^.^
before we started, we were asked to draw lots to see which group will go first.
and our beloved lecturer put the small pieces of paper in a cap and asked us randomly to pick a paper.
shanta did the first one and my group was selected to go FIRST!
time itu jugalah jantung berdegup-degup laju.
macam nak pengsan pun ada.
i have problems with presentations!
it was okay afterwards because once we did it, we were free from all this nervous, depression feelings.

and the game began!!
ummi went first, i'm the second and nik was the last one and she wrapped up our presentation.

ummi talked about time management.
i talked about the use of space.
nik talked about behavioural management.

from my observation, our group's presentation was the simplest.
each of us only had 3 slides.
that made it 9 slides of contents.
1 slide for conclusion.
and 4 slides for our names, school and aspects blah blahh.
i was terrified after seeing the other presentations, but redha je la.
see, i still couldn't find out what redha means in english!

overall, it was a good one.
everybody performed at their very best and we, as the audience were nice throughout the presentation.
~~although sometimes, we did fooled around with our friends.~~

attentive listeners? nahhh. behind there is michael.

senyum lebarr! :)

and michael gave very positive comments about our overall performance.
Alhamdulillah!
hopefully he meant every single word that he said.

phewwwwww~
itu sahaja buat kali ini!
im over excited because we passed our first obstacle which is presenting depan mat salleh.
i know it sounds stupid, but you do get what i mean kan?
kalau yang tak faham itu, ketuk kepala sendiri laju-lajulah!
:p

muka husna sangap! :p

ehem ehem.

lepas present, hadap GRAMMAR.

teheeeee~
can't wait for the next presentation....... NEVER!!

p/s: thank you for voting walaupun i know that korang cam tak waras time tu! :p

nanti saya belanja air tap.

semua orang pun hebat!

i voted for group 5 and 8 tadi! :)

cuak!!!!!

2010-12-16T00:21:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
heyy yaaaaaaaaaaaa!
i'm going crazy!!
yuhuuuuuuuuuu~
there are lots of stuff going on now.

presentation.
assignments.
packing things.

phewwwww!
tak terbuat juga kangggg!
macam mana??!

tomorrow?
eh today!
16th of december 2010.
di kala orang bersuka-ria, kami Arglye and Albion harus mempresentkan hasil dapatan kami sempena SBE!
aduhaiiiiii!
we need to talk for 5 minutes on 1 aspect of classroom management.
and i chose the use of spaceeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
yippiessssssssss!
hopefully all will go well tomorrow.

and on friday pula, ada language awareness test.
that means grammar test.
and that means, im a dead meat!
you know i kurang pandai in grammar.
adoiiiiii~~
susah hidup!!
manja sangat ni!
once dah banyak kerja, mula la gelabah ayam!
niceeeeeee one Nadiah!

and right after those two major events, barulah i'll think about the written assignments for poetry and classroom management.
nice nice.
just nice.

sedikit gambar last day di richard lander school!

p/s: selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa sempena Hari Asyura.

Berpuasa pada hari Asyura juga menghapuskan dosa-dosa kita pada tahun sebelumnya. Ini sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah s.a.w: “Puasa tiga hari dari setiap bulan sejak dari Ramadan ke Ramadan berikutnya dianggap berpuasa setahun penuh. Sedangkan puasa hari Arafah pahalanya menurut Allah dapat menghapuskan dosa setahun sebelumnya dan setahun sesudahnya. Adapun puasa hari Asyura, pahalanya menurut Allah dapat menghapuskan dosa setahun sebelumnya.” – Hadis riwayat Imam Muslim.

to read more, click here.

masa.

2010-12-13T17:36:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
:)
wanna know something?
today, 13th of Dec 2010, for the first time ever in marjon.
i rode a bus alone.
note that.
ALONE!
sendiri.
nobody to accompany me.
hebat tak saya?
~~nad sungguh lame.~~
actually, im not used to go anywhere by myself.
i feel insecure if i walk alone.
dahsyat tak gitu?
makanya, today, i decided that i need to at least experience la jalan sorang-sorang di sini.
=.=' orang lain dah lama buat gitu nadiah.
shame on you.
pergi pun tak jauh mana.
ASDA saja! hekhekkk.
overall, saya rasa suka.
jalan sorang-sorang.
~~bajet cool!~~
next time try ke city pula ye.
entah sampai balik marjon entah tidak.
:p

oh crap.
benda di atas ni bukanlah apa yang i want to talk about.
ada jaa kaitan!
when i arrived home from ASDA, tengok la screen laptop.
banyaknya windows YM!
narry s iaitu my beloved sister pun ada.
she buzzed me 5 times!
she said thara, my niece nak tengok saya.
and she called my skype 5 times juga.
:'(
lepas itu, my bro in law pula ada skype, my mum mahu webcam.
sepantas kilat kot call dorang.
tapi, sayangnya, thara yang comel dah tidur.
my sis said, dia menangis-nangis mahu webcam dengan saya.
ishh.
sedih habis ni!
then, waktu berskype dengan mak saya, she said, thara nak tidur tadi pun, mamai-mamai pun called my name.
memang meruntun jiwa betullahhh! adoiiii~

pictures ini zaman bulan lepas! :p

comel kan?????

flying kiss to mak busu.

aiyooooo!

ishhhhhhhh!
nasib baik tak menangis tadi!!!
waaaaaaaaaa!
kenapa masa kat klebang besar tak sama dengan plymouth?
tak adilkan??!
berchatting pun sekejap saja dengan orang malaysia.
mereka mengantuk.
perlu tidur awal.
=.='
oh my!!!

belajar.

2010-12-12T14:34:00.000Z

yes.

i need to learn to let go.

now.

thank you.

of SBE again!

2010-12-08T20:22:00.000Z

ehemm.
~~second entry for tonight!~~
rindu sama kamu blog.
saya akan menulis banyak-banyak.

this time, im going to talk about my School Based Experience di Secondary School.
it's our very first time going to secondary school in England and of course, i was very excited!
14 of us were placed in Richard Lander School.
it took 2 hours from marjon to reach the school which is situated kat area cornwall.
could you imagine, we need to move by 0630!
awal gila kot!
and thank you kepada yang kejut bangun pagi pukul 0500.
as usual, ayat biasa, it was very cold!

pergi pagi-pagi, mana nak nampak scenery kan?
semua orang tidur kot.
but wawa and saya berborak! ^.^

muka semangat di awal pagi. =.='

once we arrived there.
adoi mak aiiiiiii!
lawa gila sekolah tu!
macam level college dah!

direction?

pete yang sangat cool! senior teacher.

computer lab, see the computers. pergh!

ini ialah cafe! cantikkkkkk!

drama hall.

ada lampu bagai! tak ke grand?

see the music equipment!

race car!

tu ialah cafe dari luar.

sahabat.

PE hall.

facilities lengkap.

rooms banyak.

sekolah besar.

both teachers and students are dedicated.

achievements pun bagus.

how i wish schools di negara saya begini juga.

one perfect school, for me.

loneliness.

2010-12-08T19:15:00.000Z

ya itu dia!

my topic for today!
loneliness.

it's a feeling that's unavoidable.

it hurts.

most of us experienced it in our lives.

at least once.

but loneliness could be treated if we have our loved ones with us.

our case here.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

aiceh!

melalut pula!

but that's true kan?

heeeeeeee~

actually, petang tadi, we had a photography session.

ceh! bunyi nak grand kan?

walhal snap pictures guna camera biasa saja!

the purpose was to help our dear friends to do their assignment.

semangatlah kami kalau bergambar-gambar ni!

~~and yeah, we can be good models!~~

you know, we had fun although it's freaking cold outside there.

don't be fooled by the sunlight!

hehehe~

silau saja, tak panas pun!

enjoy the pictures!

buat line please.

kanak-kanak riang.

kawan tolong kawan, buat makan kawan. :)

yeah yeah!

ada, jangan sorang-sorang.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

kami comel. kami tahu.

melompat tinggi!

rojak.

2010-12-05T19:31:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!
eypp!
what about the title?
rojak!
that is a part of my feeling.
mixed feelings daaaaaaaaaaaa.
kenapa?
saya rasa gembira.
saya rasa takut.
saya rasa sayang.
saya rasa nervous.
saya rasa depressed!
okayyyyyyyyy.
lagi banyak negative dari positive!
kenapa again?
ye saya.
kenapa?
saya pun tak tahu kenapa.
pelik deyyyyyyyyy Nadiah ini!

tahu tak perasaan takut nak luahkan apa yang terpendam dalam hati kita?
be it rasa benci ke, rasa sayang ke, rasa tak puas hati ke.
payahhhhhhhhhhhhh wooooooooooo!
apa reaksi orang sekeliling?
haaaaaaaa!
sila bagitahu saya sekarang!
ada sesiapa yang boleh rungkaikan?

and macam mana nak rawat hati yang rindu family?
waaaaaaaaaaaa~
tension kot!
mahu balik!
sekarang!

the result.

2010-12-03T23:34:00.000Z

assalammualaikum!

aicehhh~

how ya doing?

just wanna share a few pics during our foundation years dan selepasnya. :p

heheeekk.

to be exact.

the 'penantian itu satu penyeksaan' moment.

date: 08062010

venue: cafe.

time: lunch hour.

reason: result!

it was after our final examination.

and a few of us volunteered to stay to help with the meeting between the mat sallehs and the lecturers here.

turned out to be yang we didnt have to do anything as the venue had been changed to one of the hotels in KB.

they were suppose to go through our exam papers, evaluate blah blah blahhhh~

and that night/morning before that, we were informed yang ada kawan kami yang tak bernasib baik!

yang terkandas one paper!

and and we didnt know who it was as our lecturers tak bagitahu siapa.

of course, we as the only 10 or 9 marjonians left were bombarded with millions of questions from our classmates regarding the result.

tentulah kami tatau apa-apa kan?

lagi laaa cuak kan?

boleh paham tak perasaan kami?

pergi toilet, balik toilet, pergi makan, cuci tangan.

otak fikir, ya ampun! aku ker?

teheeeeeeeeeee~

and now, we've been here for two months lebih-lebih dah.

alhamdulillah!

semuanya okayyyyyyyy!

we are all here.

p/s: sila perhatikan perubahan riak muka masing-masing!

wohoooooooooooooo!

salji~!

2010-12-02T07:55:00.000Z

hey ya people!
just a short update!!
now is 7.50 am, 2 dec 2010!
this morning i woke up and nampak snow!
snow!
snow as in salji!
call me jakun whatsoever!
tapi siapa yang tak excited jumpa snow?
hahah!

here's the pictures yang managed dicapture from my room!
the rest are with hana!
my camera habis battery. =.='

sila pergi sekarang.

2010-12-01T21:36:00.000Z

i got to know 'dia' since i was young.
about 8 or 9 years old.
but 'dia' did not always come and see me.
i was glad though if 'dia' did not come and visit me.
'dia' was okay, but i did not like it.
scary mannnnnnn~

then, when i was 11 years old, 'dia' went away.
yeah, i was very happy at that moment because 'dia' won't be with me.
FREEDOM

recently.
to be exact, last week.
saturday morning.
1.30 am.
'dia' came.
uishhhhh!!!
i was shocked!!
i thought 'dia' just came for a while.
but until now, 'dia' won't leave me!!
'dia' keeps coming back!!
saya sudah takut!
tahu tak?
takutttttttttttttttttt!!!
why must you come now?
i'm away from my family!
pergi kau jauh!
pergiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!

so, macam mana ni?

are you an internet addict?

2010-12-01T17:53:00.000Z

yes, i am.
ye saya ketagih internet.
(okay it sounds weird in Malay)

saya sangat suka internet.
~~statement orang yang tiada life!~~
haha!
tell me, siapa yang tak online nowadays?
i'm sure, se'busy' mana pun kamu kamu dan kamu.
mesti akan online, selagi boleh online.

ye, i berkenalan dengan internet zaman dial-up.
waktu tu primary school kot.
kalau guna internet, telepon rumah can't be used.
memang lawak.
and dengan sound nya tu waktu nak dialling, memang la kuat!
satu kampung boleh dengar!
but i survived that era. ^.^
email pun ada buat a few times, zaman nama-nama email yang lawak gilaa tu.
i remembered my first ever email was : kvra@hotmail.com
akulah paling cool time tu!
unfortunately, most of my friends tak berjinak-jinak lagi dengan internet, so kvra@hotmail.com pun mati begitu sahaja. @_@

dulu kalau online, saya akan surf website jiwang.org.
like oh myyyyyy~
dulu download lagu semua kat situ.
and oh ye, i searched for song lyrics, lepas tu, copy paste save kat word.
comel nya saya. (i know)
and the most important thing to do was to search for the pictures of my favourite artists, footballers, you-name-it!
jahil betul zaman dulu!

blah blah blahhhh.

masuklah zaman friendster.
waktu secondary school!
wajib ada lah waktu itu~
i never joined myspace sebab tak reti nak buat layout kot!
zaman friendster, ada a few kawan yang dah ada email so on and so forth, so connected la saya.
and oh ye, yahoo messenger juga saya guna.
hi5! netlog!
oh myyyyyyyyyy~
banyaknyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

my friendster.
ada sesiapa mahu add? ^.^

( saya tak delete account friendster, sayangggggggggg!)

then, internet helped me a lot during my years in SSP.
i called home, but i interacted with both my brother and sister via email.
waktu tu, i already had 2 permanent email!
and that time, not many people ada gmail like nowadays.
~~bajet coollah ada gmail that time!~~
when i browsed through my old emails, boleh tergelak-geak sendiri kot!

antara email-email itu. ^.^

gila lawak!!

after SPM, lagi la best!
duduk rumah.
bangun pagi, internet, semuanya masih internet~

then, there was this time where i did not use internet and i survived!
waktu di matriks.
i don't have lappy lagi that time.
redha sajaaaaaaaaa!
after i enrolled at IPKB, hidup sengsara without internet!
wifi maktab sangat slow macam siputttttttttttttttttt!!
then, i berjaya convinced my sister untuk belikan broadband.
hidup celcom!
era facebook and youtube and twitter!
woooo~
hidup terisi dengan youtube.
:p

and of course, facebook sangatlah addictive!
i could spend hours in front of lappy just with facebook.
gila tak?
youtube pula, tak yah cakaplahhhhhhhhh!
semua jenis lagu ada, memang syok la kaannn.
then, downloading songs became easier dengan adanya berbagai-bagai website.
:)

cessssssss!
tak sampai point lagi ni!
nak inform yang i can just hadap laptop walaupun facebook dah deactivate!
tapi merapu-rapu pula di atas~
:p
gilaaaaaaa lah kamu Nadiah!!!
facebook deactivate, hadap twitter, formspring, skype, ym, youtube plak.
boleh deactivate tak semua ni?

bebas sekejap. :) tapi rasa seperti bebas selama-lamanya.

2010-11-28T01:55:00.000Z

I AM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT I HAVE FINISHED MY LANGUAGE AWARENESS ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!

tinggal nak print saja!
tahu tak betapa berbunga-bunganya hatiku??
tahu takkkk?
tahu tak???
:)

~~rasa macam dah graduate belajar jer..~~

last day.

2010-11-26T15:11:00.000Z

hey ya people!
i'm not well.
demam ni!
tapi masih ada hati nak update blog, main fb semua!
^.^

these are the pictures that we managed to snap during SBE at Thornbury.
all cilok from my other half's fb~
:)
thank you wa.

by the way, wawa and i made cinderella hats that day with the kids.
my last day there + cinderella hats + magnificent teachers and kids!!
hopefully, we'll get to go there again next year.

my other half and i

may and chocolates.

wawa cantik.

prince charming sila datang!