aish~

i tot it had already been resolved.

but i was wrong.

maybe im not a good friend after all.

i cant watch over you.

i cant understand you.

i cant talk to you.

Ya Allah.

help me.

SE at smk tanjong mas. ^.^

SE @ school experience.

the most awaited moment for me.

:)

for two weeks.

ill be observing the environment, teachers, students bla bla bla at the school appointed by the secretariat.

smk tanjong mas is where ill be heading along with Mages, Husna and May.

i cant wait for it.

this is like the first time im going to experience the real life as a teacher.

okaayy.

not too extreme.

observer je nad.

but still.

meaningful you know.

plz exclude the activities with dabong's students.

;)

so.

we already got our task for SE.

portfolio.

field notes.

sketches.

n the list goes on.

but but.

the exciting part:

am able to spend money to buy new things.

haha.

the stuff:

new handbag.

new heels.

*sponsored by my beloved bro-in-law*

then.

the hard-cover-not-so-expensive notebook tat i just bought.

new tudung!

very thick skin socks.

new pen too!

haha.

see how excited am i to go there?

so so.

i hope.

this will be one of my most precious experience in school.

:)

hopes everything goes well.

insyaAllah.

defeated!

hahaha!

i've lost the battle tat i myself hadn't try to fight.

i couldn't do anything but to just sit and let the other person wins.

oh my~

is this the end?

can i be happy living like this?

it's proven though.

i can do it.

although it hurts the most.

it's worst than losing your bf or your beloved purse(?)

aishhh~

so what now?

shall i stand and fight again?

or.

shall i give up?

p/s: old post.

losing.

am trying really hard to face it.

am a coward.

i listen to many perceptions bout it.

but still.

i cant decide which one to do.

it all seems so complicated.

i know am an over-sensitive-type of person.

(at least. tat's wat am thinking bout myself)

wat do you think?

am i a possessive kind of gurl ?

am i a low self-confidence ?

mayb.

mayb.

i just want to protect it.

wat's mine is mine.

and it will never be yours.

erk.

but in order to do tat.

i must confront you first.

unfortunately.

i dun hv the courage to talk bout it.

or is it bcoz am trying hard to care bout others while they dun realised my feelings?

(emo ko ni nad)

sori2.

or am i overdoing it?

people dun care bout it.

or people DUN mind bout it.

mayb it's easy for them to share it.

but im not them.

p/s: i dun like sharing.

i will try to protect it.

dikir barat dan cemburu?

td telah berakhirnya suatu dugaan (?)

hahaa.

berjaya gak go thru dikir barat tu.

penat kot.

mula2 we got to know tat we will be performing during our sarawak trip.

all of a sudden.

we were selected as the representative for language department to enter the dikir barat competition.

weeeeeeeeee~

mau tk mau.

masuk aje.

hikhik.

pektis pun 2 3 kali kot as b4 this we practised the basic skill aje.

aisshh~

tk pe.

lesson itu.

&&

as expected.

kami tk menang.

tp tk pe.

kami kalah bermaruah.

heheh.

;)

oh oh.

kes cemburu tu tak settle lagi.

nadiah!!

tlg behave and be more mature?

ok?

saya cemburu.

saya ada satu cerita.

saya cemburukan kawan saya.

ada sebabnya.

tapi sebabnya tidak berpatutan langsung.

bagi saya.

tidak logik langsung untuk cemburukan dia begitu.

tetapi.

kenapa saya berperasaan begitu?

jahatkah saya?

kasihan kawan saya itu.

tapi saya cuba berlaku baik di hadapannya.

harap-harap perasaan ini hilang segera.

saya sayangkan dia.

tapi saya cemburukan dia.

haish~

kembali.

die datang kembali.

pedih.

sakit hati wei.

hahah.

tu arr nad.

jgn cari nahas.

every word i said was a lie.

cm ne ni?

tak ikhlas tu.

aish.

perit.

patah.

hahahah.

ngeng!!!

dusssshhh~~

easy said than done la silly!

of fatin raihana.pics.UK.cakes.

ellop.

i hang out with fatin 17 feb ri tu.

din do anything much.

some camwhoring (as usual)

amazingly.

we din watch muvi.

basically we just lepak2 and share stories.

gossiping is a must.

n yeah.

we din go for the reunion.

reasons:

1. they din confirm arr.

2. my family ajak kua jalan2.my bro in law bought a bag and heels for me.

sori peeps.

next time?

heheh.

so so.

ended up.

fatin n nad kuar jalan2 togetha2.

earlier tat week.

ive been thinking to bake cake for my mj2, lect, n a few other people.

so ckp la kat mak.

mak said ok.

heeh.

off i buy the ingredients with fatin.

cian die.

kene tman aku beli brg.

&& not to forget.

thara's ball.

the promoter comel.

;)

ok.

back to fatin.

waktu borak.

eheh.

we talked bout UK.

studies.

seronok2.

harap2 kami dpt ke sane.

&& today 18 feb kami kuar lg.

am loving it.

wat2 essay.

borak2.

n again UK.

cpt arr exam n settle everything.

dpt la bersuke ria kat UK.

my cakes bejaya d bake!

seronok.

leh bwk bagi org2 mkn d sane.

luggage pun kosong nnt.

ringan tangan.

;)

so ni ar pics.

courtesy from fatin's cam.

n mine too.

byk gile gmba kot.

hihih.

but upload sket sudah.

frens foreva fatin raihana binti md sin!

;)

heart you.

little things.

i arrived safely at home around 6.50 pm after spending 4 days at my bro's place.

yeah.

the saying does go well.

there is no other place like home.

home sweet home.

heeeeeee~

things tat happened during my stay there:

1. hanging out with kmm frens.

2. kenduri at abg ewan's house.

3. problems.

4. problems.

the hanging out was fun.

although only 5 of us managed to come.

it doesnt matter as long as we remember each other.

we shared stories.

n we update info on each other.

i really think this kind of gathering shud b done often.

yeah.

just to make sure everybody is alive.

hahaha.

:p

&& we played bowling.

haha.

the last time i played bowling was like 3 years ago??

caya arr u guys.

u made me play.

ok.

the score wasnt tat bad kan?

hahah.

wateva it is.

i really miss those h2p1 people.

haisshh~~

hayun.

kami.h2p1.

score kami. :)

then the kenduri.

i had to babysit my two nephews yg comel tp nakal tu.

it was ok.

&& ade birthday celebration for abg ewan.

he's old!!
hahaa.

Happy 30th Birthday abg ewan.

;)

p/s: no pic arr. sori. haha.

the problems.

tk leh cite2.

hehe.

:)

hope to solve it ASAP!

puteri yang berseri. ;)

hehe.

arrived safely yesterday around 4.07 pm kot.

luck was on my side as i planned to take my gce o level's cert.

plane tk delayed etc etc.

begegas2 tepon ssp after my bro picked me up.

hopefully sempat smpai.

:)

&&

i stepped in gak kat ssp after 3 years.

sgt best n seronok.

rindu.

rindu.

it was like 5.00 pm when i masuk the office.

hehe.

seb bek puan tu tggu.

sggh seronok.

damn i miss ssp.

neva tot i'd say this.

aissshhh~

p/s: gathering kmm tomoro. :)

responsibility.

in the previous previous post.

i wrote bout 'amanah&tanggungjawab'.

tonite i wanna tell sumthing bout tanggungjawab@responsibility.

let say.

in a group.

in a society.

in a family.

everybody has their own responsibility aite?

b it cooking or washing.

even giving orders is some kind of responsibility.

it's a job, task given by people coz they hv their trust in you.

so people.

do it well.

whether u like it o not.

dun b like a mute!

doing nuthing but expecting gud things in the end.

GTH arr wei.

aish.

dun ever run o escape o hide o watever-u-name-it from responsibility.

amanah tu wei.

it's like u're committing sin arr wei.

u're grown up people.

am sure u can think properly kn?

how will things be successful if only a few people gv their commitment?

tell me baby.

tell me.

honestly.

i dun really like doing this stuff.

but.

hello!

plz la wei.

aisshhhh~

ok ok.

done.

enuff.

period.

:)

pissed off.

okaayyyyy.

mood yg bek n tenang telah musnah!

cm ne leh musnah?

cet.

cet.

bertenang nad.

bertenang.

if u pinjam things from other people.

use it nicely.

&& jgn arr gune ganas2 kot.

haissshh~

tk pe tk pe.

leh sabar lg kot.

cet.

reunionS!

eyp.

purposely write this thing coz im super bored.

;)

excited bout the reunions.

2 reunions during this holidays!

yeay!

yeay!!

yeay!!!

meeting people we love n miss n want-to-spend-time-with is so very exciting aite?

hehe.

tat's it.

am meeting my practicum mateS && my mgss' hot gurls!!!

cant wait for the dates.

13.2.2010 with h2p1 people.

16.2.2010 with mgss' peeps.

hoping nothing bad will happen.

hoping everybody can come.

hoping to hv the best time.

hoping to catch up wats new, hot etc etc with everybody.

insyaAllah. :)

am loving it.

chiowww~

envy.

i envy you

why you?

you have it all

you have love

you have joy

you have all the world with you

what 'bout me?

i'm empty

but full with hatred

i have no one with me

i'm nobody

i envy you

amanah&tanggungjawab.

today.

we had our weekly gathering at the musolla.

prayed together.

had our ydp jpp to give a talk.

the title was 'Amanah & Tanggungjawab'.

the sharing session was fun.

&& it made me reflect my life here.

here at ip.

hahah.

long n winding journey for me.

heeeeeeeeee~

did it successfully turn me to be a mature person?

*dun think so*

sem 1 (budak skema)

-new people.

-new environment.

-a POST!

-did a BIG mistake back then.

-was hated by most people.

-the ones who stood for me said: itu amanah Allah nad. wat je.

-wat's done is done.

-regretted it.

-but after listening to ydp tonite, i realised tat it was my duty to do it.

-to be honest, i was haunted by my past (the thing tat i did)

sem 2 (peristiwa berdarah@peristiwa hitam)

-am nobody here.

-zero post, zero anything. nada. nil.

-shud i say, unfortunately, i became the pm for the trip.

-the so-called-mj2-most-disastrous trip eva.

-did i make the wrong decision?

-did i follow wat my heart o head?

-regretted it too.

-tot i did it for the welfare of all.

-again, wat's done is done.

-my name was tarnished? correct tk adj ni?

-conclusion?

-no more post after this.

sem 3 (sem mencabar keimanan)

-did MOV staging.

-realised the true colours of the people around me.

-not many things happend.

-hehe.

-:)

-is it because i was nothing there?

-mayb mayb

sem 4 (???)

-i kept and still is keeping quiet.

-quiet.

-quite quiet.

-hahah.

-still has some responsibility to be carried out.

-am doing it.

-insyaAllah.

-hahah.

-pray for me as this is my last sem.

so.

did i carried out my responsibilities well?

did i manage to do it?

did i take the rite path?

think.

think.

n think.

p/s: tersemngat pasl ydp ckp tu cm best je.

hehe.

lost and found.

eyp.

still there?

am here.

waiting for you.

heeeeee~

just want to let you know how much i miss you.

till we meet again darl!

:)

relieved~

phheewwhh!

submitted my volcano essay~!

after a very hard work tat nearly drove me crazy.

reasons:

am a VERY VERY last-minute-assgmnt-person.

i have friends who are very dedicated.

they started their work early.

i was scared.

feeling insecure.

thus, i tried to get it done early too.

unfortunately.

that is SO NOT me.

heeeeeeeee~

my brain went haywire for 2 days kot.

can u imagine?

2 days?

i cant think properly kot.

cannot sleep tu satu hal.

tp pape pun.

i managed to finish it early.

but still.

i procrastinated a bit.

:p

lesson learnt:

just be urself, nadiah.

:)

pastu.

sok ade date ngn mereka!

haha.

abes la $$ kuar.

aishh~

beautyNbeast. :)

I was made to be with you,

I've no reason to live without you,

like Stevie without Wonder,

like hunger without food,

like sheep without a shepherd,

Sleep without your message.

Oh, my love,

You are my breathe,

bring me wealth,

and prosper to my health.

My love for you is big,

and enormous,

Higher than mountains,

Deeper than seas.

When I first meet you at the meat market,

I saw you holding a shiny saw,

A saw that is not sharp and not blunt.

You are my fate,

my destiny,

You are my final destination.

When I gave you a red rose,

You rose,

and we exchange out vow and oath.

I will build a building for you,

a beautiful castle,

as a symbol of love,

I'll be your king,

and you'll be my queen.

The End.

p/s: ldes grup work.

;)

waiting.

hehe.

rite this very moment.

am waiting.

waiting for nik.

ade project mau wat.

ok.

ni bkn pe yg aku nak ckp.

hehe.

tau tak ape tu regrets?

hehe.

i experienced it just now.

n it resulted in gud ways actually.

it made me realise the importance of being a good student?

or shall i say, budak skema?

haha.

i regretted for not doing it earlier.

heeeeeeee~

but, it's better late than neva.

aite?

so nad.

jgn jd dak jahat.

tlg jd dak bek.

erm.

regarding my probs.

it attacked me again.

it seems like 'devil' doesnt like me being me.

??

apekah?

it kept whispering evil thoughts.

aishh~

cm ne ni?

selawat nad selawat.

;)

wat shud i be?

leader o follower?

abah suh aku jd leader.

tp cm susah gak.

bakat kepimpinan dh hanyut.

lemasssssssssss.

haha.

p/s: gile byk merepek.

maap.

mood tak stabil.

:)